Monday, June 09, 2008

The Shock

A comment just came in through this blog post, from one who chooses to remain anonymous. I shall quote it here:

"bakla ka carlo amf ka! pangbakla ang kwento mo hayup ka! kaya dumadami ang mga baklang katulad mo dahil sa mga tulad mo rin na walang kwenta! pwe!"

Many of you may see this comment as highly immature, irrational and cowardly. To a lot of you, it is not worthy of any attention. But it has gotten mine, and because I have chosen to leave this blog open to any and all comments, I have honored this comment by letting it through, and allowing this anonymous person the pleasure in the thought that the comment has affected me.

There's really no way around it. People will have their private thoughts about my work, or opinions about who I am, even if they've never met me. They don't care what I've achieved or whatever sincerities I hold. I can say that homosexuals are like heterosexuals in that there are the good eggs and the bad eggs, but such rationalizations can never overturn trauma-based prejudice. As much as I try to push this aside, I find it difficult, at least for now.

In my 37 years, I have never encountered anything like this, so to those who have been diligently following the Zaturnnah pages, I must apologize. My drawing has been affected.

To the anonymous commenter, take delight that your words have succeeded. But as far as I'm concerned, your anonymity only proves that you yourself have your dark secret, one I hope you eventually come to terms with. If you believe I am worthless, I will tell you that you don't need to do this to get attention. You are worth more than that.

27 comments:

Jheck David said...

usual words are "'wag mo ng pasinsinin 'yun," " deadma ka na lang sa kanya," etc. but i understand what you feel from the intial blow. a few weeks back nga, a choreographer friend of mine was offended by this starletic actor because he asked another dancer to teach him the moves saying, "mas matigas kasi ang galaw niya." being a great dancer that he is, he ran and cried himself in the CR.

my point is, anuman ang galing natin, mayro'n talagang aaapak at yuyurak sa 'tin dahil lang sa hindi sila agree sa bahagi ng pagkatao natin. tunay na masakit pero wala na tayong magagawa sa mga taong makikitid ang utak at mababaho ang pagkatao.

pero tayo? ay naku, stand proud lang with raised eyebrows hanggang sa lumipad at sumakay ng LRT! hindi ba?

mga nek-nek nila kung feel nila eh mas magaling sila sa 'tin. sige nga, i-try niya kayang gumawa ng isang comic book at pasikatin niya to the heights of ZZZ! tingnan lang natin kung kaya niya! pag nagawa niya, sige, bow tayo sa kanya sabay kurot sa balls niya saying, "magsing-galing na tayo pero mas marami pa ring nagagawa ang mga bading kaysa sa 'yo! hmph" sabay talikod. (assuming na lalaking straight 'yun, ah, at hindi nagpapanggap na straight at 'yung mga words talaga niya ay towards himself.)

hay, may sense pa ba 'yung sinusulat ko? i'm babbling na 'ata. anyway, after much deliberation and heart ache, the thing to do is "deadma na talaga!" the world will be a better place without him, but certainly not without you.

mwah!

Mugen said...

I'd really like to keep a mature mind with this post. Nakakalungkot isipin na nangingibabaw pa rin ang hate at intolerance sa mundo.

Bwelo ka muna, we understand.

Reia said...

Bro, ako ata ang na-offend ah. Don't mind him. Gaya lang siya ng ibang taong nag-rereklamo kay Arroyo at nagsasabing naghihirap at wala ng pag-asa ang mga Pilipino pero hanggang ngayon ay nandito pa rin at ayaw umalis at magibang bansa! WTF ang ginagawa niya with his precious time reading through your posts?!?!?!?! If he is emotionally and mentally balanced then why the hell will he be affected?!?!?! Sobrang inggit lang siya, he doesn't have anything to prove yet.

Nanggigigil talaga ako! That idiot na nag-post sa comment board mo, isa pa yan! For anyone, (me included) please refrain from emailing him as I think this is what he wanted.

Tama sinabi ni Gerry na mas marami pa rin ang nagmamahal sayo whatever the gender may be! And I agree with Jheck, you've really come a long way to get ZZZ as far as what she is right now, kahit gano ka kagaling-- may isang ogag talaga dyan! I-deadma na lang yan!

Take it easy, k? It is a shock to everyone who knows you.. but we are here whatever it takes. Luv you!!!

Marc Ambrosio said...

Don't let it get into you for a while since it will pass in time. I mean if there were more radical ways of expressing displeasure or discrimination like say, a drive-by flaming with real flamethrower while shouting "We will smite you with our holy fire!!!" then it would give consider pause for such dangerous times one would consider living. Its all transitory as I look at it.

P.S. : The holy fire smiting was a holdover of a jest mentioned back in 1993 when we were holding that event during the wave of new comics including Flashpoint that time. FYI :)

R.A. Laborera said...

do not hate the anonymous person but let us love him more :D kulang kasi siya ng am at gatas ng pag-aaruga...

master wag ka nang malungkot mas marami pa kaming percentage ang nagmamahal sa iyo ng lubusan :D

Mopz said...

Isa to sa mga ayaw kong ugali ng iba nating kapwa Filipino e: masyadong close-minded at judgemental. Hindi ba tao ang mga gays?. Kung tratuhin parang mas mababa pa sa hayop grabe.

Hay nako Sir Carver, kung yung nagcomment na yun na anonymous (na wala atang balls to resort to that monicker) e nag comment ng something derogatory in a more formal at educated way e i understand kung talagang titigil ka sa pag-gawa ng ZZZ-2. Pero hindi e, pabalang at parang kagaguhan yung comment. Pero i still understand how you feel regarding this. Continue when you're feeling okay.

monsanto said...

Siguro talagang ganyan, lahat tayo makakaranas ng mga comments na tulad niyan. Pero sana kilalanin ka muna niya. Dahil kung di siya sangayon sa work mo, wag niya basahin. Simple di ba? Pero ang masasabi ko sa pagkatao mo personally, you are very decent. I have to admit na ilap ako sa mga gay since high school, simple reason na ilam na ng karamihan. pero I do have a few friends na tulad mo, dahil gaya ng sabi mo napagalaman ko rin na gaya rin ng tulad namin may bad at good. I am saying you are one of the good, very warm and kind.

So, bayaan mo lang siya. Kung nabiktima siya noon. Ang masasabi ko lang. Ako gumagawa ng machong komiks, wala namang nagsasabi sa aking 3rd sex na Hoy hayop ka! Puro na lang kamachohan ang tema mo, kaya dumdadami siga sa mundo ay dahil sa iyo eh! Macho ka macho! hehehe.

Peace everyone!

joelmcvie said...

That's why moderated ang comments sa blog ko. I cannot control how close-minded some people can be, but I can keep their thoughts away from my site. =)

mrs.j said...

natakot tuloy ako..
minsan kasi akala natin ligtas na tayo..

hay i need zzz! siya lang ang nagpaparealize sakin na posible akong maging malaya at mabuhay ng ako!

nahurt din me.. pasensiya na hay...

hinga lang muna sir...tapos laban uli.. diba ganyan si ada?!

Anonymous said...

ano ba kayo kayo n nga magkakamukha e nag lolokahan pa kayo...maging totoo nga kayo mga plastik! kanya kanay kayong sakay! e totoo naman sinasabi nung nag post nun..ano kayo? may admirable society ba kayo? kayo kayo nagpapataasan at nag bobolahan? kayo mga plastic kayo mga hindi totoo! naka isa lang akala nyo kagalingan na yan! e sino ba nakabasa at nakanood nun e di yung mga bobo na tulad nyo..na walang ginawa kundi purihin at bawat isa kahit tsaka!....wala kayo sa realidad! umayon nga kayo sa mga mukha nyo!

marianne miguel said...

Naku! wag po kayong magpapaapekto sa mga makikitid na utak na mga utaw na yan.. hindi po kayo nananakit ng kapwa kaya wala syang karapatang humusga ng kapwa nya.
Bagkus, nagbibigay pa kayo kaligayahan at kakulayan sa mundong ibabaw. :) Ang rami-rami nyo pong fans ng zsazsa! And believe me, sobrang nagkakakulay ang buhay pag may zsazsa zaturnnah sa buhay. :) heheh! :)

honestly,
kaya sya nagre2main na anonymus..
duwag sya at di makatangap na mas marami nang bakla sa mundong ito.
Reality check: May kulay GRAY na po sa mundong black and white. Matutong um-accept ng mga pagbabago. Basta't hindi ka nakakasakit ng kapwa, go lang. ;) Mahal ng Diyos ang LAHAT ng taong HINDI HUMUHUSGA NG KAPWA NILA. Kesyo straight o hindi, babae o lalake, tomboy o bakla.

Wag nalang po kayong magpaapekto. :) mahal po kayo ng zaturnnah fans. ;) inget lang yan sa inyo. :) Kung hindi sya inget, aba'y bakit sya nagbabasa ng blogs nyo? :) dava? :)

mabuhay ka, mr carlo vergara! :)
gooooo for the gooooolllldddd! :)

maria said...

Hi Papa Carl,

Yes, the shock of reading something like this is enough to ruin anyone's day. Obviously, such close-mindedness can only come from small minds who know nothing of greatness except think that a big dick qualifies for one(he may not even have that).

Love you Papa Carl, because you are you, not because of how great you can become, being gay or not is not even a requirement, but because you are a true person who cares.

Iba na talaga ang sumisikat nagkakaron ng detractors...

Angelo said...

carlo, don't let those comments get the best of you. rise above it, carl. love you super! 0=)

migs, the manila gay guy said...

Be well, Carl.

Gio Paredes said...

That only goes to show that you can not please every body. As a person and as an artist I have come to accept that as I mature.

There are people that will love you. There are people that will hate you. And there are people that simple don't care about you.

It's ok, so what?
Please do not let these affect your drawings.

Anonymous said...

"Sa buong kasaysayan natin, wala na tayong ibang ginawa kundi ipaglaban ang karapatan natin bilang tao. Kung tutuusin, dito natin napapatunayan ang ating kakayahang manaig sa anumang balakid. Ngunit parati na lang nating itinatanong: "bakit tayo?" Bakit pa kailangan dumanak ang dugo kung napaseimple lang lamang ang ating mga hinaing. Hindi malinaw ang kasagutan, Ada. Ang maaari lang nating gawin ay ihanda ang sarili, ipagpatuloy ang pakikibaka... at manalig.
- Dodong, sa Zsazsa Zaturnah ni Carlo Vergara

Sir Carver, mabuhay ka! Kapanalig mo kami!

Dominique said...

Mr. Closed-minded Jerk above aka "Anonymous" deserves to have the living hell beaten out of him by Zsa Zsa Zaturnnah herself. Or maybe even Zsa Zsa wouldn't waste her energy on such a pathetic moron.

I love your work Mr. Vergara, and I think it deserves to be appreciated by a wider audience. I may not be gay or anything but even I was insulted by the "Anonymous" idiot's remark.

And if "anonymous" is reading, I'm a well-educated heterosexual GIRL. So bobo na pala ako, ha?

Anonymous said...

Carv,

You just can't win them all. As the French would put it, C'est la Vie...
Carry on !


Auggie

Ian said...

Dude, the guy's a troll. Guys like that thrive on the reactions they get from posts like that more so than their own prejudices.

For instance, why in the world would he even bother reading your blog and in all likelihood returning to it to see the damage it has done? Wasting even the slightest iota more of energy on posts like that will only ensure MORE posts of the same nature in the future, I guarantee it.

Ignore, ignore, ignore. Don't feed the troll.

Earl said...

Agree. If he despises whatever he reads here then why come back? Baka pinagpalit sya ng BF nya for another guy. =p

Mga taong ganyan walang magawa and they are just jealous of what you have achieved.

Whoopsidaisies said...

the haters are few and far between. sure, you cannot please everyone BUT keep in mind that you inspire so many more and that you are brilliant at what you do. never ever forget.

and to the anonymous commenter, were you not loved as a child? where is all that anger coming from? no one forced you to view this site. humor me with how you ended up on this blog site in the first place.

Kikoman said...

Alam mo po, panoorin mo nalang ang stars sa langit, makabubuti 'yun para sa 'yo. Para ka lang pinakain ng binagoongann na sobra sa bagoong, masiyadong maalat.

You can't please everybody, but you are definitely not hurting anybody...

Anyone might have been affected, I'm quite sure. Gaano ako ka-sure?, kasing sure na pag sinabi kong you are a very strong person, Ganoon ako ka sure.

Always be Happy, people like you that way. God bless and be happy........

To the anonymous guy, I'm sure he's a guy pretending to be a guy, stop pretending, get out of the closet. Makakabuti para sa'yo 'yun.

mimi said...

Di bale, less than 1% lang yang mga bwiset na yan, 99% ay fans mo pa rin. Kung sa popularity contest, landslide victory pa rin yan kay ZZZ!

me! said...

Hi Sir Carl!!

Wag kang magpaapekto sa mga low-life na yan.... Mga walang binatbat yan sa buhay at walang magawa kundi yumurak ng pagkatao ng iba... Ang mga ganyang tao ang salot sa lipunan.. Hindi tayo...
Patatagin mo ang loob mo.... Wag na wag kang magpapaapekto...

me!

vincedj said...

Malakas ang loob nilag mag-iwan ng bigoted at sexist comments dahil hindi nila nilalagay ang pangalan nila.

Matapang sila dahil walang silang pagkakakilanlan.

Nagtatago sila sa likod ng pagiging anonymous.

NGAYON, SINO ANG DUWAG? SINO ANG MALAYA? SINO ANG NAGTATAGO? SINO ANG BAKLA?

Sa bawat hate message na iniiwan ng mga anonymous na yan, mas pinapatunayan nila kung gaano kalungkot ang kanilang buhay.

Nakakaawa actually.

The Aceist said...

bigyan ko sha ng flying kick! basta, your work is very life-changing for me. ;)

Herbs D. said...

kiber lang fafa carlo!

nagkakamali siya. dahil ngayon, talagang tumapang na ang sangkatauhang kabaklaan na lumabas!

keep on being an insipiration not only to the LGBT community but to everyone :)

much <3

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